Can’t stop crying

I (24f) quit vaping 2 weeks ago cold turkey after vaping pretty regularly, only quitting for a few weeks at a time here and there, since 2018. Since quitting, i have been a monster. I cry at least once a day, I’m mad at everything, I can’t get a grip and my depression hasn’t been this bad since covid. I’m genuinely considering getting a vape even just for the weekend to be my old extroverted happy self again just for a little while. Does anyone have experience with this? I keep seeing that “it’ll get better” but I am so sick of being such a bummer, I miss being happy.

edit: I drove to the vape shop to pick one up only to discover I didn’t have my wallet (of course). I want to take it at as a sign but it also feels like a sick joke since I was already crying