Why I don’t care about no longer being young

It dawned on me that I really do not care about being considered hot. I had a huge slut phase in my 20s yet after sleeping with hundreds of men connection was rarely formed. Being objectified and sexualized may be fun but in the long term it doesn’t give you the same validation.

As I’m in my mid 30s now all I am looking for is connection. I am no longer hyper-fixated on how I look or how cool I should me. I’m now focused on myself and doing things that serve me only.

It’s all about priorities, and as I’m not shallow myself, if I was going to look for a relationship the focus would be on connection with looks being a bonus.

It’s taken me this long to except myself for me