53 [m4f] #sfv #reseda Seeking healthy relationship

#sfv #Reseda

Re: Seeking a healthy relationship.

I feel like Sisyphus here through the decades, pushing my heart up to someone and having it cast back down the mountain again and again. Internet dating is a cruel joke and my work life inhibits contact and my general perception that out in the realm women are constantly accosted by creeps, I seek not to join their numbers.  I am not bitter at all I’d say, I have had some good relationships with women though the years, albeit for a very short time. I have loved some women with a fiery intensity that the fire of my heart burned so brightly it could raise the temperature in my room. So, I’m not afraid of the potential of wounding in the battlefield of love even though I have nearly died from my wounds received there many times, I do get back up eventually.

I am 53 now. I am fit and active; I easily fit into a medium t-shirt. I am 5 feet 10 inches tall. I have a huge mop of long, curly hair on my head now graying, with a bushy mustache to boot. I have been told many times I am handsome; however people have also tried to hand me money because they thought I was homeless. I find that very funny by the way.

I am self employed, running a very small brick and mortar shop for 21 years now. Good with money, I own my home outright and have all the material trappings of what people in the rat race call “success”.

I am rich in friends, well liked and known in my circles, or so it seems. I spend a lot of my time organizing events for people; it is how I choose to give back to society. You can’t put a price on putting a smile on someone’s face, can you?

I have many vast, manifold interests and one of my rules is to keep life interesting!

Forged in the crucible of the punk scene, the ethos garnered there still burn bright in my heart. I try to run my life with a sense of honor, be fair minded and have the strength to be kind to others every day. I choose to live my life straight edge but it does not put me on a higher moral plateau than others, it is a personal choice.

My work, work related obligations, as well as my interests leave me very little free time. I have to run my business 6 days a week, 40-70 hours depending on the work load. This is not something that can be curtailed; it has been a point of contention. My obligation to serve others also eats into my time. I don’t try and change people in my life; they and we possibly don’t have to agree on everything, I take people as they are. We’re all flawed after all, who am I to judge? I have seen many of my friends “compromise” but it looks more like capitulation, they become boring shells of the people they once were. My life is not a veneer to be replaced with a single companion; it is not a ruse or distraction. A hard concept to grasp for many, but I feel by living that way, I truly respect others in my life and they respect me. I am not insecure in my ways so I don’t need validation by “changing” someone; I find the concept to come from weak minds.

What kind of women I am attracted to are fit of mind and body, and have a zest for life. Life owes on nothing and yet we owe everything to life. I want someone that truly goes out and lives it. I enjoy someone that has purpose, direction, goals, enjoys challenges. I am not intimated by someone that has a higher education than me, or makes more money than I do. I find strong, powerful women to be more attractive than someone that is going though the stream of life with their oars on the gunwales of their ship, metaphorically speaking. If you’re not around all the time because you travel, that is fine by me too.

Say hello, we can exchange pictures perhaps. Mine will be current. I look forward to hearing from you.