Do i have to die every time I take DMT?

I have taken DMT twice. Years apart. I was kind of scared since the first time I had an ego death experience. This second time i also had it, and it keeps being the most terrifying and real fear I have ever felt. Giving up on my breathing is always the hardest. I have been both times stuck in the so called “waiting room” which is still a quite of an experience.

Although i have felt i have learned immensely from these ego death experiences. Both times it feels as real as dying and its completely terrifying. I will give it some time before trying again, but hopefully i can breakthrough.

Actual question: Will I have to have an ego death every time before breaking through? Whats the recommendation? Take another hit? Maybe that wont even give me time to think I am dying?